phew just made it in time!
this weeks speshal dare i wish. this is my third attempt this week...all the others fell by the wayside!
jounaliing reads... i wish we could win the world cuo so that we can lift the nation, show the world that we are the best at football and the 3 lions can wear another star on their shirts.

COME ON ENGLAND....COME ON ENGLAND

My poor cat Bali who is 16 was runover the other day. he has a fractured sturnum (sp) and internal bleeding, we have brought him home and just hope that he recovers soon.

What a week!

I had a great time at the Altrincham crop...its the first time I have ever come home and not had to finish something off...and i had a good laugh as well thanks to Katie, Ali, Paul Gwyneth and of course the one and only...Mad Ginger Claire.

Fathers day went well as my brother came in the morning a dug over a what was a very over grown rockery, then in the afternoon we planted the plants that we had bought for andrew...a laverteria...aqueliga....sweet peas and nastursians (ok my spelling is naff, but you know what i mean).

On Andrews birthday we just chilled out all day and then baked a chocolate puddle pudding which we devoured during the England match...which we WON.

I haven't even started last weeks dare but if anyone wants to have a go then you can see them all at http://everyoneisspeshal.blogspot.com/ go on....have a go...you know you want to!

Wooooo ooooh ENGLAND won again tonight...that means were into the quarter finals.

It's hot...darned hot. Looks like summer has finally arrived I just wish I could get some more air to flow through the house especially upstairs coz it was like an oven in the bedroom last night...even with the ceiling fan on!

Had some fantastic news yesterday...the insurance company called to say that they had got the doctors report and hopefully it will all be settled now within 7 days....it's such a relief.

Placed an order last night from http://www.boxroombooty.co.uk/catalog/index.php last night...fab site and I cant wait till the Framedangoes arrive...they look absolutely delish.

Right...off to finish a mini book as I need to post it in the morning.

What a shit day!

this morning my sister rang to see if I had thought what we are going to do for Christmas!..She suggested that we go out for lunch..oh yeah right its going to be great coming back to an empty house. I'd much rather just do what we normally do, have his sister round in the morning while were opening pressies and the pig out in the afternoon...I mean...we have to spend every other day normally so why cant we spend Christmas day normally. I wouldnt have minded so much but I have enough to get through this month what with fathers day and then Andrews birthday a couple of days later.

Then i phoned the insurance company to see if they have received the report from Andrews doctor which was posted the week before last....surprise surprise they still havent got it.... finally got through to some one who is going to chase the doctor in the morning and get back to me.

It took the effing insurance company 4 weeks to send the form out after I had given them permission to do so...the effing surgery had already sent Andrews notes off to the CPT...even though i had told them about the form....so they requested them back and it took them 4 weeks to finally chase up his notes..even though i was ringing and chasing them at least twice a week...only to finally admit 2 weeks ago that they were lost..and then 2 hours later to say that they had in fact got them...then it took them another week to complete it and post it....and now the effing form is lost!!

Knowing my luck the surgery wont have kept a copy, will have sent the records back to the CPT...minus the notes from the emergency doctors which they managed to delete from their system!....and I'll be back to square one again!

This is costing me over £400 each month off the final payment coz I cant afford to pay the mortgage...whenever that may be.

And on top of that...I have managed to upset my friends!

Bonanza....I had a great time at bonanza, I did 3 great art classes and met some old friends and had some nice hugs off them...so thanks girlies. I went mad in the shopping hall and thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm glad I didn't wear a badge in the end coz I really coudnt have coped with lots of people coming up to me, the only time I lost it was when I saw the ambulance men.



I finally bought The De Vinci Code on Thursday, I'm not really into thrillers but I devoured it in 5 hours and it was absolutely fantastic...think I can feel an effing dare coming on! Talking of effing dares....heres my effort for last weeks theme...it makes me mad.

I'm not really looking forward to the next few weeks...Wedding anniversary...Fathers day and Andrews birthday all loom

well that was a quick week!
as I was saying last week....Sunday was one of the worst days of my life...I never imagined that the box would be so small or that it would be made of cardboard....I felt awful that it wasn't a wooden box. I totally lost it and I even ended up with soil smeared across my face...think I was having an eastenders moment. What I really didn't expect that it would put me back so many weeks. I made Andrews brothers and sister a small book in a tin with photos through the years.
I started this hours ago and there's no way I'll finish before I go to bed....so bonanaza will have to be tomorrow

drat...just spent ages updating and somehow managed to loose it all....will try again tomorrow

I took this photo today for the challenge on the pad....i know its a dandelion but it was the best one i took all day!!

The last couple of days ive spent hours trying to sort out tax and benefit issues...hopefully the respective departments will have my information...well i'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed!

It is hard shattering a childs innocence.
Raena came home with a letter stating that the nurse was coming to school to discuss body changes, menstruation and hygiene....but if you didnt want them to attend then to let them know. Of course she didnt want to go and didnt understand what the letter was about so i had to explain it to her in simple terms....she was horrified. "blood...you know i dont like blood" was her exclamation....then to make matters worse
....i had to tell her that her dad had actually been cremated and that we were going to bury the ashes on sunday...she just sat there with tears rolling down her face saying that she didnt want to go.
bless her little heart i felt so sorry for her...to have shattered one illusion was bad enough but to shatter two it was just heartbreaking fror both of us.

Took raena to the dentists after school on friday and when walking back we passed a chinese that was open....just couldnt resist it and managed to get chicken in vegtables with rice...oooh it was soo good, i was going to take a pic of it but it didnt stay on the plate long enough lol.

had a lazy day yesterday. did a couple of lo's and then claire...the mad ginger one...came around...it was great to see her as she always puts a smile on my face.

went shopping today with my sister and then flaked out this afternoon for 3 hours!!...couldnt believe i had slept for that long.

not looking forward to next weekend...its andrews internment on the sunday at 11am. ive decided not to tell raena until next friday after school...that way she doesnt have to dwell on it too long. heaven knows what i am going to tell her as she doesnt know that he was creamated and what it entailed....to her it was just a funeral and she didnt know any better.

we ate a whole chocolate puddle pudding at weekend, it was devine.

it was the cyber crop on uks at weekend....i did join in but not as much as i would have done. i managed to do one class and two challenges, my heart just wasnt in it this time.

I never thought ……

......that the photographer would be so stupid as to actually stick the photos to the mounts, so that some of them are now ruined

......that there would come a day when you wouldn’t be here to help me scrap our wedding photos and to remember all the little things that I have forgotten

......that you throwing your suit away years ago…. or….. me looking at my dress in the wardrobe would make me so sad

......that to see you again I only have to look upon our daughters face

......that I could feel so much pain.

on a brighter note....the insurance asseser has been today and they are going to redecorate the hall...so at least i wont have to look at the marks that the fire brigades ladders left on the walls anymore.

oh and the pic below is of a lo for the cc...it was a challenge to scrap a friend.... this is aligov

ali and chocolate

I dont quite know what happened to the last few days...they have seemed to have merged into one!

Paul is taking me to altrincham crop tomorrow...so i need to crack on later with some more chocolate muffins as promised to Ali....I was going with my cousin Carol but her husband has been rushed back into hospital again with internal bleeding.

My tsv came yesterday...thanks girlies...you know who you are...it is very pink and quite lush.
Raena went out with her aunt yesterday to see Ice Age 2 - The Melt down....she said it was really funny.

I managed to take a pic of her and Zante as they were chilling out together on the sofa.....talking of the cat...he's just fell of the arm of the sofa again.....that cat has no sense of balance...even when he's asleep!

Well todays post is a lot later than what i expected. We had visitors this morning and what with washing, gardening, baking, making tea and watching a film the day has almost gone!
Todays pic is of the scrumptious chocoalte muffins that we made...they even had a chunk of chocolate inside...those that know me know that i cant cook...so using a kids cook book was a godsend!

Well i finally made it and got myself a blog!
I havent a clue what I am doing with it but I am sure that my friends will sort me out!

I decided to go with a blog to record my everyday life as at the moment i cant remember what i do from day to day...I guess I am still in shock from the sudden death of my husband Andrew a few weeks ago....omg....just checked and its 7 weeks now.....at least I will be able to look back in time and be amazed at how I got through all this.

Here is a picture of the ingredients for chocolate muffins which we will be making in the morning....cant do them tonight as we are going to get tea ready soon so we can slob out watching dr who and harry potter