2006

What can I say about 2006? It was a crap year in so many ways.
It started off fine with Raena’s birthday….the first time she had had a party at home…she loved it and although Andrew didn’t really want her to have one at home he was in his element with the kids and said we should definitely do it again.
Then Andrew became ill in February, he went to the doctors and was told it was a viral infection. I called an emergency doctor out on the Sunday because he hadn’t been able to lie down, he just sat on the bed and now his leg was swelling up as well as not being able to breathe, again he was told it was a viral infection. On the tuesday I had to call an ambulance because his legs had turned purple and were freezing and he just couldn’t breathe. Two hours later he died at the bottom of the stairs as they tried to get him to the ambulance.
The world as I knew it just disappeared, all our hopes, dreams and our future. He wouldn’t be able to vet Raena’s boyfriends, wouldn’t be able to pick her up from a disco when she became old enough, wouldn’t walk her down the aisle or revel in his grandchildren. There wouldn’t be anymore windups…for years I thought he was ticklish under his chin….no more fights with cushions…no more dancing in bed…. No more dreaming of living in spain…it had all gone.
Days became weeks and then months…all rolling into each other.
Then in june Bali our black cat was runover…I was lucky and somehow he managed to survive. Some how during august I managed to decorate all of downstairs.
then in late august came the news that Andrews best friend Malc had died in his sleep due to a ruptured heart valve. Malc had been devastated when Andrew had died and many believed that he died of a broken heart.
We went to spain in October for a week, it was awful. I missed him even more. Then when we came back there was a letter saying that Andrews 2nd cousin pat who lived in Australia had suddenly died as well.
This year has been an emotional rollercoaster….. my health has suffered because of it, I have been in and out of a&e all year because my tongue keeps swelling up, I cry myself to sleep most nights and I really want to get off this rollercoaster now.
Apart from Raena the only thing that I have to be thankful for is my family but most of all my friends. They have made me laugh and cry. They send me endless text, pm and email messages…let me phone them at stupid hours and just cry down the phone at them, and THEY have given me the strength to go on.
So to you girlies I say thank you and roll on 2007…it cant get any worse.